But Zion said, â€œYahweh has forsaken me, and the Lord has forgotten me.â€ [The LORD said,] â€œCan a woman forget her nursing child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? Yes, these may forget, yet I will not forget you! Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are continually before me.â€Â Â Â Â Â Â Isaiah 49:14-16 (WEB)
Most of us did not have perfect parents.Most of us are not perfect parents. Both of these statements in my life went from bitterness and guilt to a journey of healing when a friend, Dr. Harvey Brown,Â suggested and encouraged me to allow the Father God to show me His Father heart for me.
I began to read passages in Scripture where God spoke, Jesus described who He was, and especially the psalms. David wrote very descriptive verses about his relationship with the Father. I learned from David that I can be angry! I can weep to the point of exhaustion and the Father does not turn away or ignore me. The Father brings His comfort and healing.
[The LORD said,]â€œIt shall happen that, before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear.â€Â Â Â Â Â Isaiah 65:24 (WEB)
How cool is that??!! Before I call out to God, His answer is on the way! But why does it seem like He is silent? That could be the answer! Time to do a check on my question and intentions! Time to consider if I am lined up with Godâ€™s plan or am I trying to get Him to live up with my plans. God, in his mercy and desire to give me the best, may be saying â€œnoâ€ to my request for the â€˜immediate mediocreâ€™. May I have ears to hear Godâ€™s reply and not limit the answer to my own. What about sin? Wonâ€™t God punish me for sins? Doesnâ€™t He hate me when I sin? Here is where I really had to learn how a â€œgood Dadâ€ responds to a disobedient child. God does not withhold His love. His love is never conditional on how â€˜goodâ€™ I am.
For godly sorrow works repentance to salvation, which brings no regret. But the sorrow of the world works death. Â Â Â Â 2 Corinthians 7:10 (WEB)
The Father sends His Spirit to convict me of my sin. Not condemn, but convict. So I will be sorry and seek His forgiveness that is free because of Jesusâ€™ sacrifice. I do not have to beg or beat myself up. I am not a screw up! I am still the child He loves. If the Fatherâ€™s assurance of love is not part of your understanding of His relationship with you, then begin reading in Jesusâ€™ own words how much the Father loves you. John 14-16 is a good place to start.