This I Know

[Jesus prayed,]“I am in them and You are in Me. May they be made completely one, so the world may know You have sent Me and have loved them as You have loved Me.”      John 17:23 (HCSB, my emphasis)

Jesus loves me, this I know… Do I? Do I live and think like I know this? Do I secretly wonder why God would love any of us? I mean we gripe and complain about the weather, our toys, who is the better gender, and who has control of what country.

God, You didn’t put any lines or borders on the world. You see every person as your child. You filled the earth with food but we complain because some of Your children are starving. You gave us beautiful blue skies and we pray for rain; it rains and we pray for sun, like we know what’s best any way.

This weekend we will spend more time and emotional energy watching a bunch of guys carry a ball around a 100-yard field than we did praising and thanking You. In fact, we might even skip worshiping You so we can prepare for or be at the football party! You have every reason to kick us to the curb but You love us!

The only life experience I have that gives me a glimpse into the realm of why God loves us is how I felt when I saw each of my children for the first time. I was filled with an emotion that I had never known and cannot adequately describe with mere words.

Nine months of experiences that included daily nausea and heartburn that was only overshadowed when I began to waddle and had to choose a seat in any room I was in based on which one I could fit in or get out of.

And once my child was born I was responsible to keep him or her warm, dry, fed and safe 24/7 which means sleeping was sporadic and my needs sat back on a distant burner. And did I receive thanks? No!All I have felt for each child is complete, no-holding-back love! The love that I thought I had inside of me was not divided by each child but multiplied by some indefinable number so that as I look at, think of, or hold each child I am consumed by how much I love him or her. God gave me this love for my children because it is how He feels about me!

God has no grandchildren or cousins – just children. Look into the face of my spouse, the cashier at the grocery store or the FedEx delivery guy and I will see God’s eyes, His hands, His feet, His smile. I am God’s child. You are God’s child. And He loves us!

Nothing can separate us from our Father’s love. Jesus said it (John 10:28-30) and so did Paul (Romans 8:38-39). In fact, go through the entire Bible and I bet every book will talk about God loving His children in some way. If I think I have done something too awful or disgusting for the Father to still love me – I’m wrong. God sees my sins and loves me. God sees my struggles and loves me. God sees my turning away from sin and starting again and loves me! Repentance is for me, not because God needs an apology. Repentance is me stepping closer to God and His love becomes more clear to me.

Yes, Jesus loves me. God’s Word tells me so. God Spirit speaks those wonderful words right into me. “I love you. I love you and I always will.”

Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone) written by John Newton & sung by Chris Tomlin

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John 3:16: The Beginning

For God so loved me that He gave His one and only Son to die and make up for my sins. And if I believe in Him I shall never die but live eternally with Him. For God did not send His Son to me to condemn me but to save me through Jesus Christ, His Son.” John 3:16-17 (my paraphrase)

Some would say that “This is it! the gospel, the Good News, in a nutshell!” I think it is definitely a good start. If I were a sailor, I might think of these verses as the North Star, a way to always find my way home in my faith journey.

When I am threatened with overwhelming pain and grief, it is the extravagant love of God in His words that shore up the shield of my faith and bring that sword of His Word to my mind and heart! When life isn’t fair – God is still faithful!

Jesus was the payment for my sins. The payment was more horrible than any movie Hollywood has conceived. It was beyond physical pain. It was the separation from all that had always been! Jesus did that…for me.

God’s promise is hope for all that would tell me, “It’s hopeless!” When I reach the end of the rope and know I cannot do this alone, God is there to tell me He will do it for me! I catch a glimpse of the depth of God’s love.

God offers me much more than any ‘plan’ conceived from this world. God promises forever. I will live forever with Him. It is the perfect love story. God teaches me how to love. He teaches me what love is. God shows me that love has more facets than the most beautiful diamond.

Jesus is man and God. Such a mystery! But here I am with Jesus, my friend, brother, and guide through this life. He came to be my Savior but so much more! He came not to beat me about my many, many failures but to, in fact, teach me how to choose and walk His way. He will literally save me from myself!

God loves. God is love. God loves me. WOW.

The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save.

He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17 (NIV)

Yesterday, Today & Forever written & sung by Vicky Beeching

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Encased in Ice

My dear friends, we must love each other. Love comes from God, and when we love each other, it shows that we have been given new life. We are now God’s children, and we know him. 8 God is love, and anyone who doesn’t love others has never known him. 9 God showed his love for us when he sent his only Son into the world to give us life. 10 Real love isn’t our love for God, but his love for us. God sent his Son to be the sacrifice by which our sins are forgiven. 11 Dear friends, since God loved us this much, we must love each other.

12 No one has ever seen God. But if we love each other, God lives in us, and his love is truly in our hearts.

13 God has given us his Spirit. That is how we know that we are one with him, just as he is one with us.14 God sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. We saw his Son and are now telling others about him. 15 God stays one with everyone who openly says that Jesus is the Son of God. That’s how we stay one with God 16 and are sure that God loves us.

God is love. If we keep on loving others, we will stay one in our hearts with God, and he will stay one with us. 17 If we truly love others and live as Christ did in this world, we won’t be worried about the day of judgment.18 A real love for others will chase those worries away. The thought of being punished is what makes us afraid. It shows that we have not really learned to love.

19 We love because God loved us first. 20 But if we say we love God and don’t love each other, we are liars. We cannot see God. So how can we love God, if we don’t love the people we can see?21 The commandment that God has given us is: “Love God and love each other!”       1 John 4:7-21 (CEV)

Did you read all that? Yes, it was 15 verses and that may seem pretty long but it may be the best and most important words you read this week. And the CEV translation may be one that you aren’t familiar but when I read an unfamiliar translation of a familiar passage it makes me slow down and think about the words passing through my brain. So I encourage you to take the time to read this whole passage and maybe get really intense and read it again from your familiar Bible translation.

As I am writing this, most surfaces outside my home are encased in ice. The porches outside both doors have a solid sheet of ice on them. I would need to pour warm water over my car doors to get them open as ice has crusted over the hinges and locks. This is strange weather for Florida!

The visual example outdoors has caused me to ask myself: Do I have a warm, compassionate heart or has it become encased in ice or stone? When I see a homeless person on a street corner am I moved with love or judgment? What is my reaction to someone who has different political views than I do? Or different faith beliefs? What if they are a different race?

Jesus said the greatest commandment was to love God with all my heart, mind and strength. He said the second was to love my neighbor like I loved myself (Matthew 22:37-40). And then He clarified that my neighbor could be someone that I had identified as an enemy (Luke 10) and my family would not necessarily be a blood relation but whoever did the will of God (Matthew 12:47-50). There is no wiggle room here to make God’s commands to His children more palatable and easier.

So let me read John’s words again. Let them soak into my heart and spirit like a marinade. And if I think I can’t do this? Well that is a true assessment because I need God to take my heart of stone and replace it with a loving, compassionate heart of flesh.

Holy Love written and sung by Andy Park

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He Is

Jesus knew that he had come from God and would go back to God. He also knew that the Father had given him complete power. 4 So during the meal Jesus got up, removed his outer garment, and wrapped a towel around his waist. 5 He put some water into a large bowl. Then he began washing his disciples’ feet and drying them with the towel he was wearing.           John 13:3-5 (CEV)

John’s gospel tells me in these three verses that this is Jesus, the Son of Almighty God, Emmanuel, God with us, the Messiah who has removed His divine cloak and taken up the towel of a servant.

It is difficult for me to imagine my LORD, who has broken the chains of my sins and destroyed Death, bending down and washing feet that are filthy with all manner of dirt. I am a country girl at heart and most comfortable walking around my home and in my yard barefooted. I have stepped into the shower and seen the black footprints that I leave. As I turn on the spray and rub a soapy cloth over my feet, the water turns dark and then finally rinses clean. The bowl and cloth would not have been so forgiving with feet that had walked several miles in first century Israel.

The same hands that touched the first flower at creation had also wrapped His tiny human fingers around Mary’s finger. The hand that was now washing feet, gently lifted the hand of Jairus’ daughter and delivered life back into her body. It’s hard to accept these hands doing such a task.

But I have felt that hand on my brow on many a night, calming and comforting. His hand has washed away pain that has tried to become a constant strain on my body and spirit. Gently Jesus washes me with the complete power of His perfect love. How wonderful it is to come home after a day of hard physical labor and take a shower that removes dirt and sweat and then lie down on clean sheets which brings on a wonderful rest. As I think of these contrasts I can put myself into John’s recollection of that night.

I don’t understand how Jesus can be so kind and gentle when I have been so forgetful and full of pride. I don’t understand but I just know that He is. He takes me into His hands and washes me, not just as part of some ritual but because it is necessary.

When Peter objects to Jesus washing his feet, Jesus says, “If I do not wash your feet, you have no part of me.” (John 13:8) Jesus didn’t tell Peter to go wash himself. Jesus told Peter that he must let Him do the washing. Jesus can take the dirtiest part of me and make it clean. If I will let Him. I can never be clean unless I confess I am dirty to the only One who knows the extent and stench of my filthy sin.

And that’s the truth about forgiveness. I will never forgive anyone as much as God has already forgiven me. Until I allow God to wash me clean I will never have the strength and the love to wash the feet of someone else with forgiveness. Jesus left no one out of that foot washing, not even Judas. Jesus, whom I have hurt, shows me how to receive and give forgiveness. God always completes what He starts. No matter how difficult the task, Jesus asks me to do only what He has already done. He is there showing me the way.

He Touched Me written by Bill & Gloria Gaither, sung by the Gaither Vocal Band

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Come and See

Philip went and found Nathanael and told him, “We’ve found the One Moses wrote of in the Law, the One preached by the prophets. It’s Jesus, Joseph’s son, the one from Nazareth!” Nathanael said, “Nazareth? You’ve got to be kidding.”
But Philip said, “Come, see for yourself.”         John 1:45-46 (The Message)

“Come and see.” Theologians and Bible scholars might identify Philip as the first evangelist of the New Covenant. I believe this is the evangelism that Jesus called us all to practice when He said, “Go into all the world and baptize and share all that I have taught you.”

Come and see God’s inspiration. Handel wept as he wrote The Messiah in 24 days and signed the last page with “To God alone the glory.” I have wept every time I have sung pieces of this work or sat in the audience and listened. I have wept reading passages of the Bible and reading some works of contemporaries who have written their own God-given revelation. I believe it is God who inspires and touches my spirit when I hear or see His inspiration in words, music, art, and dance. If we would just open our hearts and minds, we can experience God’s inspiration. Come and see.

Come and see God’s love and forgiveness. I know three couples who have had miraculous God-given recreation in their broken marriages. I watched as these couple fell under the weight of sin and broken promises. And I have wept. But God’s love and mercy is more powerful than any of man’s intentional or careless mistakes and sins. I wept with joy as God, like the potter, took the clay of these marriages and formed a new and stronger creation of His plan and design. God’s love and mercy is there for us to plug into any time, day or night. Come and see.

Come and see a changed life. Jesus changed the lives of fishermen, tax collectors and church leaders, as they followed His example and became servants bringing the love of the Most High God to anyone who would seek Him. He can set an addict free and restore love to an orphaned child no matter their age. A life led by anger and ambition can be changed to a life of peace and service as it is broken and recreated by the perfect love of God.

Come and see my life. There is no fanfare. There is no applause. Whatever good there is in my life, “to God alone the glory.”

There was a baby in a manger who was born to a young girl and a carpenter. He left home around the age of 30 and chose 12 guys to teach for three years. He spoke to all who would listen about God’s love and plan for His children. The plan was driven by His divine grace and mercy that would be ultimately shown in the sacrifice of His Son, Emmanuel, God with us. This sacrifice would happen, not in a beautiful temple but on a Roman cross. His teaching would continue and be multiplied throughout the world, not just by great scholars but by everyone who was willing to share what He had taught them. I heard it, really heard it on a summer night and my life has been forever changed.

Come and see. Simple inspiration from God.

What Child is This? written by William Chatterron Dix and sung by Andrea Bocelli & Mary J. Blige

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I Have Seen

And John testified, “I watched the Spirit descending from heaven like a dove, and He rested on Him. 33 I didn’t know Him, but He who sent me to baptize with water told me, ‘The One you see the Spirit descending and resting on—He is the One who baptizes with the Holy Spirit.’ 34 I have seen and testified that He is the Son of God!”   John 1:32-34 (HCSB, my emphasis)

I have seen. And I testify Jesus is LORD!” It is an honor. It is a privilege to come here, to the forum that God has created in this devotion group, and testify about Jesus Christ. God birthed the idea 15 years ago and has faithfully written these devotions. All He asked of me was to be His scribe, His secretary. His Words have changed my life. I truly cannot conceive of where I would be, or even if I would be, if God had not given me this opportunity.

My maternal grandmother was a gentle, praying woman who battled severe, debilitating depression most of her life. She raised five children through the depression years with the help of her husband and my mother, her eldest child. My mother did not speak of it often but I have heard stories from her siblings that my mother baked five loaves of bread a day, cooked three meals a day, and kept the house, leaving school before she was able to complete the 8th grade. My grandmother had depression episodes so severe that she took to her bed for weeks at a time.

I believe that it is only through the powerful grace of God that I too have not followed that same path. Between 1995 and 1997 I felt a war going on in my spirit. The battles were won, not because of my great strength, but because God led me into a His presence and saturated me with His presence as I devoured His Word, both in the Bible and in worship songs. He brought people into my life that loved me and prayed for me. He gave me insight into the enemy who would attempt to bring me down into his pits of despair, telling me that I was alone and should just give up.

“When the last days come, I will give my Spirit to everyone. Your sons and daughters will prophesy.
Your young men will see visions, and your old men will have dreams. 18 In those days I will give my Spirit to my servants, both men and women, and they will prophesy. 19 I will work miracles in the sky above and wonders on the earth below. There will be blood and fire and clouds of smoke. 20 The sun will turn dark, and the moon will be as red as blood before the great and wonderful day of the Lord appears. 21 Then the Lord will save everyone who asks for his help.”        Acts 2:17-21 (CEV)

My friends, do not doubt the power of God to work in your life. He has promised that He will not abandoned us. The abundant life that He has promised (John 10:10) is not a life of big homes and luxury vacations but of victory over the enemy who wants to devour our souls and condemn us to eternal despair.

Let us rejoice and live our earthly lives in the sure and present hope that we have in our Savior Jesus Christ. Let us live like we know to Whom we belong and Where He is leading us. And let us testify to this victorious life with an open hand and heart, never judging or condemning but freely giving as it has freely been given to us (Matthew 10:7-9).

My Tribute/My Redeemer written by Andre Crouch & sung by Nicole C Mullen

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Give A Minute

Lord, I seek refuge in You;
let me never be disgraced.
2 In Your justice, rescue and deliver me;
listen closely to me and save me.
3 Be a rock of refuge for me,
where I can always go.
Give the command to save me,
for You are my rock and fortress.
4 Deliver me, my God, from the power of the wicked,
from the grasp of the unjust and oppressive.
5 For You are my hope, Lord God,
my confidence from my youth.
6 I have leaned on You from birth;
You took me from my mother’s womb.
My praise is always about You.
7 I have become an ominous sign to many,
but You are my strong refuge.
8 My mouth is full of praise
and honor to You all day long.

9 Don’t discard me in my old age;
as my strength fails, do not abandon me.        Psalm 71:1-9 (HCSB)

Last night I sat reading this psalm and my heart was stirred by hope as I read these words. It is a testimony of the truth about God.

  • No matter what is going on in my life, I can cry out to God and He will already be there with His arms open, my refuge.
  • When I am beat down and feel I cannot go another step, God is Hope and is ready to pour out His hope on me to lift me up.
  • God is worthy of all my thanks and praise. And I want to start and end each day giving thanks to Him for all that He has done.

Today I am thinking about how God has been with me for 60 years as He knew me even in my mother’s womb. And that is a wonderful truth for everyone to know. Is there a senior saint who needs a reminder of how much God loves them and is with them every day? The hair may turn silver, walking may take the same effort as running, and more friends are going on to heaven but God loves and takes care of His child through every day of their life in this world and for all eternity with Him.

Take a minute and turn to God. What does He say to you? Do you hear Him mention someone to call or send a card for encouragement? Who needs to hear Psalm 71 besides you and me? ___________? Yes fill in the blank and lift them up with God’s encouragement and hope!

Testify to Love written by Paul Field, Ralph van Manen, & Hank Pool, sung by Wynonna Judd

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Forever After

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. 2 The earth was barren, with no form of life; it was under a roaring ocean covered with darkness. But the Spirit of God was moving over the water.      Genesis 1:1-2 (CEV)

The first two verses of what I know as The Bible, God’s Word. “In the beginning” is there to help my understanding. For God, there was no “beginning” because He has always been. So in my finite mind this phrase means that when God created time, this was the beginning.

From this moment of beginning, God created all the beauty of the heavens and the earth. It was a place for His children to live. When I stand and look at Niagara Falls, look at the waves that roll and splash into the sugar white sands near my home, or gaze at majestic mountains that rise with indescribable strength, I catch a glimpse into what God created from the beginning. Into this time and place came Adam, the first man that God created and called good (Genesis 1:31).

God created each and every one of us. He did not replicate me from another child but from His own image and likeness. People may say that I “look like” my biological father and that my granddaughter “looks like” me but all three of us are individual children to our Father. He created me and thus opened the book that would record each day of my life. He wrote my name – and then turned the pen over to me to write the choices that would map my life. That was a risky liberty, what I now call free will. It would have been much simpler and more safe for God to keep the pen in His hand but it would not have been love. Love can only truly exist when it is free to be given.

God continued to give His love. He gave Himself. He sent Himself to live a fully human life. He became the flesh He had created. He had hands and feet. He had laughter and tears. Most importantly, this Emmanuel had choices just like me. He stood at crossroads – actually He knelt at the crossroads – and wept as He asked Creator God to allow Him to pass on the crucifixion. And then bowed His head in submission, choosing to walk obediently up that hill to the Cross.

I too had the opportunity to choose death of myself so that I would have eternal life. In July 1995 I made the choice to live the rest of my life God’s Way. I began to follow Emmanuel’s footsteps to my own cross and take it up every day. It is a conscious choice every day, sometimes even more than once a day to let go and place the pen back in the Father’s hand to write my story.

When I was a little girl I read Cinderella and Snow White and loved the words “And they lived happily ever after.” I wantd the story book ending. It does not come with the right Prince or with gold at the end of a rainbow. It is only with the Creator God who has always been and created me at His perfect time and with His perfect plan that my life becomes Forever After. No enemy can defeat me because Emmanuel has defeated the Enemy and Death. No weapon can be formed to destroy me because I have God’s Spirit, the same one that hovered over the waters before they were formed. His Spirit brings all that I need to live each day. His wisdom, comfort, strength, grace and mercy are only the beginning of the abundance that He has for me that defeats anything that attempts to influence my choices and derail the life that my Creator desires for me. I have my Mighty Gracious LORD. I have forever after.

Majesty and Glory of Your Name written by Tom Fettke & sung by the Mark Thallander Foundation Festival Chorus

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The Ananias in My Life

[reprinted from March 16, 2012]

[Ananias said,] “Brother Saul, the Lord Jesus, who appeared to you on the road you were traveling, has sent me so that you can regain your sight and be filled with the Holy Spirit.”      Acts 9:17 (HCSB)

Ananias was a disciple that was called by God in a vision (Acts 9:10) to go to Saul of Tarsus and deliver His message. Ananias probably asked the question that anyone of us who has ever had a vision has asked, “Is this really You, God?”. Ananias is being sent to the most feared man in their immediate world. Saul was known as a hunter and killer of Believers in the Way. Ananias would probably rather hear anyone’s name from God’s lips but Saul’s.

God doesn’t “give up” on people as quickly as most of us do. Jesus is the the One, the only one who gets to pass judgment and dismiss someone and yet it is not uncommon for us to dismiss people, even groups of people, as “unacceptable” to receive our witness. Like Ananias I may think I know all about someone but what I don’t know is about what the Holy Spirit is doing or has done in their life before God sends me to them. To Ananias, Saul was blind. But Saul had spent three days in the presence of the Holy Spirit and it was time for the blind to see.

Has God given you a “Saul assignment”? Are you trying not to hear His command? Is God asking you to welcome a gay couple who have begun attending your church? Or maybe God tells you to pray, actively pray every day, for someone you know who is – yet again – in rehab for drugs or alcohol.

I have had some people in my life who might have been named “Ananias”. The first one who comes to mind is my mother. I wasn’t an easy child. I always had questions and could rarely take the “easy road” as I grew up. I know that my mother prayed for me every day. When I left the church as a young adult, it must have been very difficult for my mother to trust God to turn that situation around. It wasn’t her nature to try to “argue me into faith” and if she had it probably would have caused me to dig my heels in deeper.

God may call me to speak directly to someone or He may ask me to quietly and steadfastly live my life out in Him before someone. What God does ask me to do is not give up. When other people may dismiss people because “they’re sinners”, “they are gay” or “they are homeless”, God may ask me to call them brother or sister. God will never send me where He hasn’t already been. By the time God sends me to a Saul – who knows what I might find!

This is a trustworthy saying, and everyone should accept it: “Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners”—and I am the worst of them all. But God had mercy on me [Why?] so that Christ Jesus could use me as a prime example of his great patience with even the worst sinners. [Here’s the important part!] Then others will realize that they, too, can believe in him and receive eternal life. All honor and glory to God forever and ever! He is the eternal King, the unseen one who never dies; he alone is God. Amen.    1 Timothy 1:15-17 (NLT, my emphasis and comments)
I Am A Friend of God written & sung by Israel Houghton

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Beyond The Tears

Nevertheless, that time of darkness and despair will not go on forever. The land of Zebulun and Naphtali will be humbled, but there will be a time in the future when Galilee of the Gentiles, which lies along the road that runs between the Jordan and the sea, will be filled with glory.

2 The people who walk in darkness will see a great light.
For those who live in a land of deep darkness, a light will shine.
3 You will enlarge the nation of Israel, and its people will rejoice.
They will rejoice before you as people rejoice at the harvest
and like warriors dividing the plunder.
4 For you will break the yoke of their slavery
and lift the heavy burden from their shoulders.
You will break the oppressor’s rod,
just as you did when you destroyed the army of Midian.    Isaiah 9:1-4 (NLT)

Lectionary texts: Isaiah 9:1-4, Psalm 27:1-9, 1 Corinthians 1:10-18, Matthew 4:12-23

As I begin a new week, I read through the Scriptures for this week and I look forward to reading these four passages several times. The passages speak God’s truth softly yet firmly, “I love you, Jody. I love you.”

Isaiah 9. The time of darkness and despair will not last forever. How often I have walked through a valley with long, dark shadows and thought that the sun would never shine again in my world. Th way out of the valley seemed long and difficult, maybe even impossible.

God isn’t just present on top of mountains. He promised He would never leave me. He promised He would never sleep or doze and so leave me to walk alone. God’s promises are true.

Psalm 27. God is light. There is no hidden corners in God; no locked doors hiding unexpected retribution for my failings. God knows everything about me and still loves me. In fact His love for me isn’t a response but it is always the instigator. God loved me first when I was dead in my sin. He saw the potential of me. And by His power I am becoming what He made me to be.

1 Corinthians 1. “I love you!” “God has overcome sin and death.” One of the most horrific forms of execution in history is also a symbol of God’s abiding love. Yes, that might be seen as foolish to those who are blind to God’s power and love. But God also has a plan to use you and me to carry the message of Good News with the power of His Holy Spirit. Amazing!

Matthew 4. Jesus reveals God’s Plan A: Use His children to tell each other the Good News of the Cross; share His Way to Eternal Life. (And there was no Plan B!) And God’s plan is working! I may not understand God’s way just like I don’t understand how a hummingbird works. But I can testify that my life has been forever changed and I can point to a hummingbird as he flies by.

God loves me. It is a mystery as to why He does but it is a warm cloak that covers me in the cold that blows through my life here on this earth. God loves me more than I can comprehend but it is a wonderful lesson I am continuing to unfold very day.

God loves me.

You Know Better Than I written by David Campbell, sung by Dallyn Vail Bayles

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